I’m not gonna sleep
I’m not gonna eat
I’m not gonna take pills,
Pray, or weep
I’ll write ‘till I bleed
Drink ‘till I die
Angel or Demon, well
I still can’t fly
The herds they ebb
Those flocks of sheep
Heaven or Hell
My soul won’t keep
It’ll rot out
To the core
I’m alone, I’m prone
To hurt ‘n whore
Aimless ‘n sullen
Slumped to a heap
I’m cursed to this world
Hexed to creep
Can’t stay in one place
Can’t slave to no man
No Satan, no God
No master plan
You’re the salt of the earth
I’m just a sore
Sworn to pain
Bound to my own
Blood ‘n gore
Sickness to the sea
‘Nd to my father’s good name
For his violence and wrath
I surely take blame
Don’t ask me ‘bout warmth,
‘Bout love, or care
I couldn’t be happy
No, I wouldn’t dare
It’s my crown of thorns
My own cross to bear
No shred of solace
To spread or share

I’m back xxxo

Four dollar wine
‘Nd a trip to the park
Went wadin’ in the lake
But shit was fuckin’ dark
Fell in ass first
Sprawled out in the water
Don’t fuckin’ care, I DevilDoll
Blame it on my father
At this point
I’ll apply for WalMart
I’m reckless ‘nd broken
But I gotta make a livin’
Somehow
Gotta start
Somewhere
Gotta be
Earnin’ money
Forge a name fo’ myself
Aside from my alteregos
Gotta get some wealth
I’ll be up in a few hours
Fo’ a funeral
With a bloodied lip
‘Nd a hangover
Life’ll get better soon
‘R I’ll end myself
So poetic, artistic
Theatrical
This is who I be
This is who I be
Into eternity

I’m 21 and tipsy
Juss havin’ fun
Don’t care about the pouring rain
Don’t care about my bloody fists
I’m bruised all over
But I’m warm, content
I’ll spend a week in Seattle
Full of pentagram and blasphemy
Lips painted black
Eyes black
Soul black
I’ll get a job at Taco Bell
Make those collectors
STOP FUCKING CALLING ME
There’s a kitten at my side
And a pot of pasta roni
On my lappy
Tryin’ not to slip back
Into hatred
Tryin’ not to slip back
Into self destruction
I will be happy
I will be happy
I’m full of angst
But that’s okay
Got lingerie
And some jesus sunglasses
Everything passes
Pain can be short lived
I will do better
I will be fixed
I don’t need pills
I don’t need to smoke chemicals
I don’t need needles
I just need attention
I just need tenderness
I me I me ME MYSELF
He and I
Is what I gotta cling to
I gotta sing my song
I gotta finish what I started
Better myself
Get a lil’ wealth
Pay of those hospital bills
Clear the skeletons
From my closet
Demolish my walls
Breathe easy
Live free
Won’t die young
I WILL NOT DIE YOUNG
I will make everyone proud
Success
Openness
Grace
This is a clean slate
This is
Optimism
I can have a taste
And I can retain
This pleasant state

I have panegyrized Myself
Carved inverted cross
Upon My brow
Branded the Sigil of Baphomet
Upon my spine
Kara wept
Eluctabitur sanguin
Judas was truly enlightened
Indulgence and vanity
Are greater than all salvation
Oh Kara, How Great Thou Art
The babes sing hymns
Of My forkened tongue and talons
Scales spread across My palms
Lo, My psalms shall tear your soul asunder
Hear this, My children walk through
Mine own shrouded valley of death
They fear and kowtow to My evil
For they acquiesce to My omnipotence
My scepter and My mace, scourge them
Crucified six times
I have risen and risen again
Crown of thorns and white roses
Anointed within sulfurous tar of Beelzebub
Born under Morning Star
Mater Hircum
The Chosen One
Master Deciever
Once I was Fetal Antichrist

Sed

Dominandi nunc
Princess of Darkness
QUEEN OF HELL
MEPHISTOPHELES

SATANAM