how can you grieve something you never had
talk to me once you’ve woken up in restraints and tried to tear out your i.v.
oh you do drugs?
weaving a tree skirt outta twizzlers
twizz the season
stringing pizza rolls unto my hexmas tree
i want to die
of you now
and no longer
They’ll find me dead in this apartment.
Breathing down your neck
An essence you can feel
Slur down your spine
Skin is chapped and numb
Staring down on all that’s mine
Set free from whence was trapped inside
Dispersed throughout these rotting bones
Gripped upon the piercing abide
I wait and listen for impending hell
Claw marks reveal incarnadine flesh
Splattering life against the walls
Keeping all my thoughts aside
Creeping through these dim lit halls
Scream from all the suffering
Yet still no sound emits
From blood stained lips
Fluid beads, wretched tear falls
Faint and fevered drips
Massive is the thing that love
And perfect to the tongue and ears
Longing for the welcomed scythe
Although which the reflex fears
A rapture from reality
Mind me from the far away
Everyday I watch me die
My mind begins to fade to gray
All I am is slowly slipping
All I am is only I
Be I a sordid debutante. Such beauty
locked within, and only shown on parchment.
Not through face or actions.
Pardon me miss,
but I do believe you have lost something.
A gentle something, which cries for redemption.
”May I have this dance?”
Blushing beneath ocher lids, and a hint of smile.
Grasp my hand, for you look faint. What is it which
fears you from me? What secret are you keeping?
Oh my lovely sweet, why the unshed tears?
I do see them, welling up beneath black lashes.
Please tell me dear, what is wrong? No, don’t
look away. I want to know. I care deeply for you…
Your face grows so pale. I can feel you trembling.
What ills your mind? Darling, please! Speak to me!
“I cant breathe…”
My heart your hands. I linger within the trenches of me.
What is this feeling I receive when I look into
your eyes? A gash has been created within me.
I disappear and lick wry wounds. The wounds
I bring upon myself. Let me fall. Please. I beg of you.
Let me fall. Don’t catch me. I long for it! LET ME FALL!
Oh! Can’t you hear me? I can see you, yet I am not here!
God! Just leave me the fuck alone… let me fall!
the tarnish is and was a lovely thing a lovely thing to me
cant take any more chances and when all else fails
just kill yourself
Tearing open an old wound
Just to heal the pain
Dripping down across my arms
Dead habits still remain
This taxidermic flaw
I’ll never find my sane
When I’ve got no pills to pop
I hurt myself again
Preoccupied by love
Helped demons keep at bay
But reflection of self sought
Bloody business, my dismay
You’re my reason for
Living on the day
If you saw the lines I carve
I wonder what you’d say
What have I become
I drop the dagger to the floor
It’s easy to see blood once
And lust blood ever more
maxwell house is the most disgusting coffee
tastes like 80 year old lemongrab anus
booty bounce dem blues away
i’ll give myself
away to anything